change in plans

This past week has been filled with unexpected events. I went in Monday for a fairly routine colonoscopy and learned that I had a mass that would need to be surgically removed and require a few months for recovery.

We were stunned. We were so focused on going on a mission. Our every thought was… what needs to be done before we leave… and now we felt we were letting people down-- people in the mission who were depending on us.  then we recognized that this is God's work.  He knew our problem would create this outcome.  He could handle it.

So we adjusted to the fact that we would not leave on the date planned. It would be pushed back at least several months.

As the week progressed the news continued. Cancer had taken up residency in my body. It had spread outside the colon. There were several masses that needed to be dealt with.

We spent the first few days in mourning. And the next few trying to find a sense of direction and focus.  Moving from mission to healing.

One of the wonderful blessings has been feeling the outpouring of love from family, friends and our wonderful ward family. It humbles me and I am grateful.

At this point we are walking day by day.

Regardless of the future, this much I know.

I am a daughter of God.  He loves me!

Jesus is my Savior and He is walking beside me every step of the way.

He knows my pains, my fears, my hopes and my joys and He feels them with me.

I Trust God.  I know all things shall work together for my good.

I know my Savior is strengthening and supporting me through this and all things.

I am confident that as I continue to seek God's guidance and direction, we will find a way through this.